So, yeah... I've boight a few ImagineFX magazines recently, and keep getting hyped up to try some of the stuff in there... but oh so little time.

I'm getting frustrated because my desire for my work to improve in quality has dramatically increased... but I'm so out of practice I can't keep up with my own demands. So I never finish anything! Yay for me.

I have several half sketches and ideas floating around. I'm just going to have to start trying to devote a little time now and then to actually making them happen in a decent amount of quality. Wish me luck!

In other news.. it's less than a month before my 26th birthday, and nearly 2 months to my daughters 2nd birthday. hurray for getting old.

I suppose my old yearly update is a little overdue.

Freya is 18 months old now -- she's a lovely little girl.

I don't have much time for drawing or RP these days with working full time and being Mommy etc, but I am trying now and then to sketch a little at work or when I'm up late at night (like now).

Anyways, hope everyone is doing well. Look for me on LJ or Facebook if you want to keep in better touch.

Wow, devart has really changed looks in the past, oh... year. Oopse.

Anyways, I wanted to give a big mass thankyou to everyone who's commented on me while I've been gone and to anyone new who comes along, a thank you in advance.

I can't make any promises this time. I haven't even looked at my tablet in months -- Seriously. I sketch a little in the margins of my notes at uni, but that's about it. I won't be melodramatic and say that I've given up drawing forever, I'll just be realist and say that life is way too busy for me right now to put any sort of concentrated effort into arting.

Why is my life so busy? Where have I been for the past year? Pregnant. Well, okay for 9 months of that year... she's 3 months old now (well, close enough.) That's a picutre of us over there. She's a beautiful baby and very well behaved, but nonetheless looking after her and progressing with university at the same time has killed pretty much all of my hobbies -- yes, even playing WoW. (OMG o_O;

Anyways, I hope everyone who reads this finds themselves well and I hope to see you all again sometime down the road! Until then, take care.

Yeah, I know it's been ages since I've posted anything, again. Seriously, sorry about that.

I'm in the process of colouring two things right now and just had an idea for something else to draw tonight. Moof. Inspiration really isn't the problem anymore, it's lack of time. Uni has me swamped this semester and when I'm not dealing with that life and other things seem to take priority over arting.

Hopefully I'll find the time to keep slowly working on what I have going right now and maybe have something up in a few weeks time.

Hope you all are doing well!

So, yeah, I was late on finding out about all this inner turmoil and angst going on around $spyed, °jark, et all...

I'm still not exactly sure -what- to think. I'm hesitant to jump in with the masses and masses who are all 'omghatestab' at Spyed... and yet after reading up on the situation (as much as my aching head will allow) I can't help but feel that Jark was wronged.

I have a hard time wrapping my head around this picture of Spyed as some sort of evil, brooding, community vampire... granted the Spyed I'm remembering is from the days before devart was incorperated and then shortly thereafter, I know people change and that power corupts and blahblah~ ... it's still just hard for me to picutre. It makes me sad, and in a way I feel bad that spyed is getting massive amounts of hatey doom flung in his direction. HOWEVER! After reading his journal and the whole time wondering 'why isn't he mentioning °matteo?', and knowing the impact charisma can have on the perceptions of others... ugh. It's hard to say, but I'm hesitant to make a final judgment about this part right at the moment.

But, I can say that I do know these things:

I HAVE spoken with Matteo before. This was ages ago when I was still new to devart and he probably would never remember me, but I remember having a conversation with him via notes for a while before one day finally seeing an announcment or something made by him and it finally clicking to me 'hey, that guy's an admin!' ... to me he was just this cool guy who liked pug doggies and happned to live in Texas like I did. Matteo IS one of the two co-founders of deviantart (the other being Jark, naturally).

I remember when the announcment was made that Spyed was going to be a fulltime 'business' employee (sometime in early 2002 if my memory serves). At the time my understanding of this was that he was hired to help form devart into a working corperation and not just some giant black hole for money. Sorry, kiddies, servers don't maintain themselves on good intentions and happy thoughts, a website of this size and calibre is going to -need- revenue to keep itself going, and revenue needs managment and that means -someone- has to be in charge of 'business'. I love art, and I love the community (yes, I remember when there was a real sense of community), but without revenue and all the business evils that come with it devart wouldn't be able to run.

My neutrality may be disturbing to some, but I am nothing if NOT an extremist. I try to see both sides of anything before making a decision, but seeing as I've had a few people coming to me for my 'opinion' as an 'older deviant' I felt it might be useful to pop my views up here for people to see and discuss.

I do plan to observe a day of yellow on the 7th of August when devart turns a whopping FIVE YEARS old! Horray for devart! It's a shame that such events are overshadowing what should be a major party-time accomplishment.

I definitely feel that there is something 'off' about this whole situation, and the lack of information about it is just leading to conspiracy-theory kinds of hysteria. I severely dislike mass-hysteria and such things associated with his and thus is another reservation I have with jumping into the lynch mob so quickly. I'd like to know more facts before making any sort of decision, though I know right now there are legal matters at stake and things can't be discussed so~, having been in similar situations where I was legally bound to not say anything I can totally understand that.

While its nice to see that the community is still -there- enough to throw their all into supporting Jark, I think the real battles with this will be fought out legally, and I do hope things get sorted out. Personally I'd like to see Jark put back into position as President of deviantart, as that position I feel is rightfully his. Legally however, it could be a different matter depending on the distribution of business shares and whatnot.

So, there you have it! I'm reluctant to believe that $spyed is evil ... a business man (and maybe even a not-so-good one) yes, but not evil. That said, I do trust and respect the opinions of °matteo and °jark and several other respectable deviants that I've been conferring with throughout the day. It's a hard call for anyone to make without knowing all the details, but it reeks of bitterness, deciet, and broken trust. I makes me frown.

I never thought I'd see the day when Matteo would leave devart, but it happened... now Jark has been fired? Other respected staff deviants are resigning as well? Something is amiss and it's definitely not something that's just going to 'blow over'.

*loish's journal has alot of information as well as `liquify's.

I hope my little view of the pie (grey as it may be) might help some of you guys to make your own decisions or at least find out more information about what's going on.